I wonder if I have some deep rooted fear of intimacy, and in fact do really love her, but am scared to death to commit.
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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fresh prince of ohio
I'm just so sad all the time. losing weight and barely functioning.
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Do you detect an underlying sadness ?
by Phizzy inwhenever i talk to jw's, and even in some of the jw official videos, i detect a definite vibe of sadness coming off these people.. i am very sensitive to "atmospheres" and to peoples emotional state, you wouldn't think so, because more often than not i do not react to what i detect, i just let people get on with it.. but i do get this feeling that they are sad, probably because very, very, very deep down they realise that it is all false, maybe ?.
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fresh prince of ohio
The last time I attended a meeting at the JW assembly hall in London Ohio was in 2001. I remember looking around at the people sitting in their chairs, hearing the same old thing. I found the whole scene to be incredibly saddening, so much so that I just had to get up and leave. Probably some of it was me projecting though as I was going through a very difficult time.
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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fresh prince of ohio
Gosh. It's not getting better. It just gets worse.
This is like survivor's guilt or something. Like last night i went out with some friends and it's like i can hardly enjoy myself - all i can think about is that she's alone in her condo, with her financial problems, and her uncertain future, and feeling like she has nothing to live for or hope for.
I wonder if I'm just projecting all of this?
I wonder if I should just go back to her and make the best of it?
The financial issues bother me the most. I'm lucky in that I've made it out of the ever-swelling nickeled-and-dimed-to-death ranks of the working poor in the US; i make a decent income and I don't have money worries right now. The same is not the case for her and I doubt that it ever will be.
I want to rescue her so bad. Is that true love?
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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fresh prince of ohio
I just can't stand the thought of her sitting at her condo being sad and crying and feeling lonely.
Plus I was reading tonight that the US economy is going to collapse soon. Who is going to protect her from the marauding bands? not joking
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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fresh prince of ohio
That eharmony article is all about, 'here's how to FIX your co-D relationship' not end it.
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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fresh prince of ohio
I'm thinking about inviting her to couples counseling. I find that the idea of never seeing her again is just not sitting well and that we can work things out.
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Feeling Sick
by FreeGirl2006 injust found out my 12 year old niece got baptized on saturday.
that is the same age i got baptized....as we all know it just should not be allowed.
if a child is not mature enough in other areas of life how can they be mature enough to commit their lives to the borg?
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fresh prince of ohio
...a decision that she will be held hostage to for the remainder of her life.
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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fresh prince of ohio
Thanks AF. Beating myself up is one of my defining characteristics.
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breakup guilt
by fresh prince of ohio ini recently broke up with my girlfriend of four years.. she is 40 years old, with health problems, financial problems, little family/friend support, and facing an uncertain future.
i gave her some money.. the guilt i am experiencing right now is absolutely anguishing.
she had very, very high hopes about our relationship and loved me very deeply.
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fresh prince of ohio
thanks losingit.
Today's mantra is "radical acceptance".